disgusting

i fell through. so much for this "fast" it was only because my lab lasted me 4 hours instead of 3 i was so stressed everyone else from my group was going to eat so i decided i'd go, but with no intention of eating. but i ate anyway.

veggie burger 123 cal

burger roll 180 cal

grean peas about 1/2 cup 67 cal

fries about 10 111 cal

icecream one scoop 270 cal

chocolate cake 388 cal

WTF WAS I THINKING?? 1,139

that was all in one sitting. this means 200 crunches without stopping. i should probably go try to purge but its been a long time since i ate.. i am so disgusted with myself. honestly. no eating tomorrow. at all. i dont deserve it. i dont deserve even a nibble. punishment. cold or room temp water only. no warm water. no coffee. disguting.

f m l f m l f m l why cant i be strong?